changes?

i don't know what am i up to tonight. perhaps i had too much sleep yesterday night, total of 15 hours and now i am wakeful to the extent that i went running. arghz! after wasting so much energy, i am still in front of my screen in keen attempt to change my blogskin. staring at the alien script which will take me forever to understand.  i feel so ashamed that i studied web design yet i can't even change my own blogskin. call myself designer? very doubtful indeed.

thinking of design, i recall that this afternoon farhan received a piece of good news from his lecturer that he got accepted by the SIP company he applied without having the need for an interview. how great is this? he was so overjoyed that it suddenly occur to me that i don't even have a decent portfolio yet. now here's the thing, i am challenging myself to get the blogskin fixed so as to prove myself that i am useful as a design student. nothing is impossible right? but there's huge possibilities for failures like me to fail. what the fuck, i am having too much crappy thoughts right now. i am creating problems out of nothing seriously. how much bimbo-tic can i go? 

whatever. i have the urge to use back my livejournal because i prefer my old blogskin! sigh, i realise no matter how much i change, i still go back for the old ones. hope this not implies to my life.