i realised staying home has always induce loads of negative impacts on me. i couldn't help to think that my life is plain boring, low society lifestyle and i am just another useless human living on this earth.
seriously, i thought i've a rather positive person compared to my friends. i remembered one year ago there a buddy who told me this, " life is like a bed of broken glasses, you bleed every steps you take". that time the optimistic me still snorted at his thoughts and claim that life is beautiful if you truely savour every moment of it.
what the fuck,this is it like a smack right in my face now. i totally hate life right now for the fact i am suffering every moments of it, no every seconds of it.
what am i destined for?
yucks, i saw the bastard come online. sorry for digressing again.
what i know my future is bleak. i cannot manage on what is happening now, then how do i even control the next decades of my life? everything feels so wrong when i am despairing.
another bastard came back with blasting music from his newly bought handphone. what is wrong with him? does he have to be such an loudhailer when he stepped in? he no need to create more reasons for us to detest him.
okay, everything is a dust in my eyes now. i need to pour out all before it accumulate up so much that i couldn't express it out.
i need a listening ear yet the ear is waving with to the rnb music.
*vibrate* steph is at double o having the time of her weekly nightlife which i am banned from it forever and ever.
i wonder, besides clubbing at night on friday what else can i do to kill those few hours? can you comprehend my feeling when one just have to throw their work aside without a valid reason? i am just so absurd right now, a instant NO to those suckers of my beauty sleep every night.
*roar* who is available at this timing? scanning through my phone list however i am hesitating to call anyone potential ones. call me sane, i am like everyone else who loves to be called, not the initiator.
this not do, that can't work, i am as frustrated as i am typing.
* took a glance at my fast asleep mummy* cursing in silence... all was her fault. one party has to sacrifice, always been that case no matter in what situation.
OMG, the bastard's phone is playing taylor swift's song, LOVE STORY!!!
wah lau, since when he " jat kan dang"?! *puke* oh my goodness, there's more like "maria" song in the hot korea movie..... dots. whatever man.
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