everytime i hear a voice calling from inside, telling me i can be better than what i am now.
because i am the only one who truly understand myself, only i can push my limits and break through those obstacles to reach for my goals. however, my current circumstances doesn't allow me to do so. as in i am tight in cash flow and time, beside that, i've a hard time managing my life as a poly student now.
if you can see, i am struggling hard to provide myself sufficiently by giving tutoring and freelancing. although my free lance haven't been giving me much problems but i foresee it clashing like a tsunami in no time. tutoring was my pastimes. i used to enjoy when kids are obedient, things are different when you become friends with them. i grumbles more on tuesday than on monday because i dread to see those horrendous bastard who're learning what is respect. fine, they shall be forgiven for God's sake.
oh my effing gosh, i am literally one leg in coffin if i continue to be so laidback. okay, maybe not coffin, um but i cannot better word. okay, i see things this way.
most people or girls at my age are either models, NIE training teachers, working, make awesome portfolio in their three years of poly life or studying in university now. yet i am anonymous christina who achieve nothing great in her 20 years of living. even some kids have fame by blogging, the craze of blogging did boost someone far.
those are what i yearned for however it seems too far-fetched.
it's my primetime to strive a name, be known or do some investments even owing a driving license is good. at least something please, something that superficial world judge as a "wow" item to owe for.
say that i'm ambitious but money don't drop from heaven,let me break my poverty in ease.
so what am i going to do? lol, let me think about it since i've so time to the extend of tearing of my face and ask people out. yucks, this is not christina's style.
maybe if i do better in primary school, my destiny would be different. if i'll to reverse back time, i hope i hadn't eat so much too(: LOL.
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