tempermental

i canceled my tutoring with the primary six student intentionally again. this is the last time i promised.anyway, i found out something when i called my student's mum. i was dumbstucked when she checked with me if i issued any work for her. i fret out, panickingly rummaged my data for it. then here's come the sounding voice which tells the truth. " don't ask anything lah, i don't know how to do lah" cheryl, my student actually left my math assessment book in her school again, why did she have to bring it school in the first place? english homework, doesn't know how to do and her mum sided her. are you saying it's my fault that her capabilites isn't up to expectation?

kids sometimes are kids who roundabouts reasons for not doing work. i'm feeling helpless at times because her parents pampers and spoil her to certain extent. they hold me responsible when she claim there's no homework and show improvements in her grades. come on parents, it is a two way things. i issue out work, habitually parents should be tracking her to completing her homework. parents hold the controlling power to discipline their own little bastard, i don't you know? my job scoop is to teach only, don expect me to deal with their willful attitude which indirectly affects the progress though. stressful

today i wasn't me, once in a blue moon will i feel this way.
for no reason, i kept feeling unease, on the intense verge of hurling F* in the midst of nowhere, along the corridor, missed the bus or even looking my reflection from the dark windows.

i've to calm myself down to sort out my abrupting emotions, it's driving hatred in me. i am not exaggerating, but i am hating the world now. ARGH. WTF!

i'm completely skint now. the only possession worth money is my merely one dollar farecard accompanied by one month of bus concession. how much pathetic can i get during this public holiday when people make plans to chill out yet i am home facing my mum who refuse to buy our dinner. she can be more childish seriously. the starving process don't help to discipline her children, she just don't realise it.

help! i'm waiting for a kind soul to call me and date me out.