看不见的痛

is there anyone care to hear my screams?
any souls to lend me their shoulders for my convulsive gasps and loud crying?
any hand bothers to give me a pat for comfort?
willing to turn a side of your ear, once again listen to my old yet hurting stories?

我的心真的很痛。我已经受不了！

dig into my wound when it's not fully recovered.
dumb myself by getting intoxicated every weekend.
turn a deafening ear to mummy, pretend everything is normal, is okay
stab myself deeper when intruding his facebook
countless slow torture while i walked down the memory lane the countless times
putting up a strong front only to feel more grievous inside
constant self-encouragement has becoming self-contradicting
emotional pains are contagious, brought everyone down

如果感觉可以关掉，世界一定会更美。